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Sunday, October 22, 2006

when a closest bunch of friends come to give u the biggest surprise u ever received and left u tongue tied and although its way pass your 18th birthday, how would u react? i wanted to sssscreammmm out LOUD cause ive the new sleeeek pink version of nano! but refrained from doing so cause im freaking staying overnight at Mt vernon. thanks iggy, gracielumfrikhoo, timon & zhou for driving all the way to aljunied(: back and forth but i guess its a good way to practise your driving, right iggy-friggidy? hahaha and u guys thought that CATHY'S BOOK wasnt enough...? im just too facking happy for words la

today was crematorium day and actually the first time i'd seen daddy cry all these 18 years. i dunno how to describe the messed up feeling im having right now. but i know i really need my crazy funny happy friends to put all troubles away

ive got the job at paper people at far east! 4 sad dollars/hr )): but since im always retrenched & out of job. i shall be thankful. tmr's first day of work but im not getting paid for the first 8 hrs. they call us trainees. oh well gotta go complete my presentation slides for photography tmr!

f i o@8:17 PM
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

i have decided to blog more about school and less of my pathetic love life. Haha

after wednesday's land training, i felt freshed and revamped cause we ran 14km! I thought i could finish it with the guys but my knee gave way. It hurt quite a bit ): but the pain was gone when i ran up-slope. anyways im quite proud of myself

my aunt passed away on thursday morning so i skipped school, attended the wake at Mt Vernon and the night service after that. listened to the pastor talked about her life on earth and even as we grieve, rejoice in the truth that she is now safe with God. it took me quite sometime to register that in, and it urged me to pray and quickly bring dad & mum to know Jesus. not only that, but i want my friends to come to know him too. joanne, jiun, daryl, emily, karyn, iggy and zhou. u guys will be kept in prayers. and i thank God, my other closies have already accepted christ.. zoey, shi, valerie, rayner, gracie and timon. continue serving the Lord!

friday was another sinful venture with jiun & rayner at vivo. spent 116 on a skirt and top from forever21 + 10 at candy empire. PODS chocolates are yummiliciously tasty, a MUST-TRY! i think i can never control myself when it comes to shopping. jiun was trying so hard to pull my insaneness together but my eyes just couldnt stop blinking
hahaha i swear im not a bad influence, jiun! u bought a 58 bucks top and u forced me to eat that choc mudpie from coffee bean sooo to hell with restrictions! study hard work hard spend hard. we've to live HAPPY!!! OKAY? YAY!

NOW, i just need a camera to take all the lovely pictures. rayner's buddies *joel muahhwee don joanne*came and companied us as we hopped on to other temptations. oh ya, rayner & I did some pretty evil things at zara. some lucky person might find out.. in a pair of silver boots.. HAHAHA

see, i can be really happy if i want to and no body can stop me when it happens.. (:

take the effort to say hi
make the effort to smile
make the effort to listen
what's left is the effort to change
are you happy with the way you live? don't you want to be a better person? i know i do.

quoted.

f i o@10:29 AM
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I dont think you know the thing call love. I didnt make you fall for me; it wasnt even part of the plan.
So, stop acting as if you know me well enough to like me.
Stop talking about me and showing the entire world how it has been hell for you, like it hasnt been for me.
Stop saying how much Ive changed when the only reason behind that change is to stop you from liking me further.
I dont mean to blow you undercover, Im not sad, just frustrated. But of course, its none of your business.

I almost fall for it, the trap, the movie date, that phone call. You know girls love surprises and Im just too stupid. If it wasnt one of your scheming ideas being blown I would have let you lead me by the nose. So many girls, so little time? You know its a dangerous game to play, but you, just simply dont know the rules.

Now you tell me, where does that leave me? Totally screwed.

f i o@11:19 PM
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

First day of school:
Photography class with jiun, joyce & vernon. had to take 40 pictures minimum for a presentation next monday. Vernon's super annoying but it sure was fun. MORE SNAPSHOTS! had lunch at SIM and went to jiun's to watch the whole first season of grey's anatomy while she played SIMS HOT DATE and murdered her fake grandma. stole her carton of milk and her chocos from the freezer. it was damn good. the chocos i mean. cadbury's new chocolate fudge brownie and they're not even out in stores yet.

Today:
skipped OM to watch Princess Diaries 2 with Buddy- rayner but soon after, he left me for JOEL and MWUAH HWEEE ):

lectures were super boring. cost managerial accounting is so gonna kill me i swear. ive to give my fullest attention and do all my tutorials to at least hit a PASS. anyway, suppose to have pool slot after school but due to bad hazy weather, it was cancelled. met some of the monsters and head to Vivo! Had subway for dinner, Pandora & I made the other 3 laughed like crazeeee monkeys.

Sinful Act No. 1: gracia.. if ure ever asking me bout what to get for your anniversary, im sure its the same old answers; cigarettes, condoms, beers, peanuts, hotels and a few KINKY DANCES

Sinful Act No. 2: shopped with jiun. she made me try that black/gold dress.. OH MY. i swear if its 10 bucks lesser ill buy it. im obliged for my own atm a/c and i promised myself to never touch em until the next big sale but i just cant control my temptations! & although there's another round of job chasing tmr at 3pm at far east its not 100% ill clinch the job. so wish me luck!

f i o@11:27 PM
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Shi, if ure reading this right now. (Cause I just read your blog and i cant tag for nuts cause i dont use Xanga) i dont know how you feel but according to what ive read i know ure feeeling miserable and inconfident and so sick and tired. vancouver is breaking you. But u know u have to stay strong and continue believing that things will go right somehow. Continue praying and trusting in Jesus and im very sure that whatever he's putting you through is a test and you'll emerged more independent and much stronger than u were before. Dont think of jumping down from anything under and allowing inner demons to conquer u. that'd be too satisfying. get out of your hidden covers and start making things happen instead of watching your life slip away like this! yes your parents are forcing you to go to York House which u feel so inferior in, everyone knows everybody and you're this new girl and everything they do seems to favour everything but you. they're stopping you from doing many many things but they can never stop you from dreaming and doing what u want. you're smart, pretty, full of ideas, you write such great articles.... you deserve much better than these. but first, uve got to do something about it. stop envying ruth for enjoying in some arty farty boarding school and start doing something happy for yourself. im always here for you, even if we're a million miles apart. stay strong (:

with love,
your true blue B.F

f i o@7:47 PM
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comic strip.

so after pool slot yesterday, serene and I went Holland V for our job interview @ Fosters and headed to town to print her photos. met the polo guys waitering at Taka. some 100th anniversary event by Kenzo/Lancome. zhihao, small benson, junkang, peter and jasper. all looking SUAVE in their uniforms. managed to exchange the shirt jiun bought for me at Stitch but its quite different cos the words are in pink instead of brown

went to meet daddy & mummy for dinner at kuriya. some jap eating house at raffles city. their salmon sashimi was SUPERB. ambience pretty cool. service excellent. companied nick to get his slippers and had BnJ ice cream for dessert. ordered my favourites dublin mudslide and choc fudge brownie again with hot fudge and caramel...YUMMMMMMIE

dad still dont wanna get me a camera. i really need it. i mean i really WANT it. that explains why im taking photography 8am TMRRRRRRRRRR ((: cannot believe the HOLS have ended. yes i badly want to see my classmates and get back into varsity vibe but ill miss the everyday-get-to-see-canoe-people times. such fun we had

f i o@12:26 PM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Leaving for Mount E in ten minutes. She won't make it through tonight. God. Its just difficult to watch her go. So much has been said and done. But i guess all of us had somehow prepared the worse to happen, just holding back our tears.

I didnt mean to break your heart, but stop wasting your time on me. And you, its someone else you chose instead. Suddenly Little Miss Sunshine has become Little Miss Thunder-Cloud. i think i can't control my own explosions or unhappiness or anger or whatever anymore. it kinda sucks.

I need my happy pills

f i o@5:21 PM
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06/10-08/10

Eccentric Canoeist Camp was awesome. Shit loads of fun. I cant remember much. Fear Factor was part of the game, we were suppose to eat disgusting stuff made out of wasabi, vinegar, raw eggs, onions etc. Second part was easy, sucking ping pong balls out from a pail of BEEHOON, soysauce and I dont remember whats. Third, we had to extract limes out of mealworms and flour. The fourth one, transfering tiny frogs with our mouths from a big pail to a small cup. And I had 3 frogs in my mouth! Didnt dare do it at first but in the end all of us got so engrossed about winning we couldnt care less. I was like f. just do it. The first night after our ice breakers, we bathed and changed into bath robes and roamed the whole of town. It was much more embarassing compared to last year's( wearing PJs) Last night, all the groups performed. NACC sure has lots of hot potentials! We sweat it all out at the dance party afterwards. Knees aching, shoulders breaking. I love both Mambo & RnB(:

the hot babes

05/10: MOS with rayner, gracie, emily and gracia. Badly missed lingzhen & alexis. Thought 4 monsters were pathetic enough. The music was bad, thank God for GOOD COMPANY. finally legalllll!!#$*#@% HAHAHA no more fake IDs. proudly flashing my card.. im BLOOOODY 18. so buddy treated me some drinks. and I tasted beer for the very first time. emily loves it. vodka cranberries, tequila, sex on the beach and danced the night away. my heels almost killed me

Yesterday: Sentosa(: hoping to get a real good tan but the sun rained out on us. then we had a few volley matches with the guys. and i think monsters played fascinatingLY well. we even beat the "pregnant-sushi ladies"! haha. Dinner at pasta with the juniors. then the bumpy sleepy bus rideeee home and annoying peter & romeo at the back seat. spell U.G.H.

f i o@12:05 PM
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

thankyou guys(: BIG SURPRISE

mimi, zhou, timon, iggy, junhong, vernon, emily & gracie

lovingly done by EMS & GRACIE

very happy faces

missing the other 3 parts of me

diggg in!

i wish i knew

f i o@1:00 PM
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Met tiffany for swensens and we had a good time reminiscing the past, the teachers we used to have who transfered out and who got married. Then we talked about friends we used to share and relationships that can either break us or keep us alive. I love you loads and Good luck with yours truly haha

I wished last night didnt have to end. Jiun, you're the greatest! planning all of it with such intricate details. ill write in points so I wont miss anything out

shopped the heeren shops, got my black tights at freaking 16 bucks when jiun & I caught sight of one at Cine which only cost 9 bucks. And I almost bought the one at Mphosis which is like 27? &*^%$%#@ to hell with brands?
we took neoprints. HAHA Jiun thinks we look good. Bitchy good, sexy good. And she got me a pair of red earrings (:
watched Little Miss Sunshine. you really "surprised" me GRACIA LOO. Miss gracia thought she was a smarty ass, she scaled the whole of town thinking I wouldnt noticed her. ure really a certified KUKUHEAD. But the egg tart with the candle on top did surprised me. So i blowed the small cake in the theatre and ate delicious double choc chips from Bakin' Boys. u twooo made my day(:
it didnt end here.
headed on to great world for Ben & Jerry's. to find......... MONSTERS at the table, with the chocolate fudge brownie and dublin mudslide ice cream cake. 18 candles, a loud bday song and "KINKY" written on top of e cake. As usual, more photo taking with my loves.
it all ended with a stupid call. and heading home in a taxi

good things come in small packages. the best birthday ever.

f i o@11:25 AM
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Monday, October 02, 2006

They surprised me. Just wanna thank gracie, emily, iggy, timon, zhou, vernon, junhong and MIMI(: for making this the best 18th birthday SURPRISE ever

So gracie called at 1210 saying she left a shirt in my house and had to take it back. Then the doorbell rang and I opened it. There stood emily and gracie, holding the perfect oreo cheesecake from NYDC YUMMIES! singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY. After that, both of them lead me downstairs saying they've got a bigger surprise for me. I went down and gracie quickly covered me in a big black trash bag and the boys started shooting water guns and dumping flours. It took me 45mins to wash that water+flour outta my head. Came back down and enjoyed the canadian pizza mimi "baked" and had BOLS lychee liquor specially brought by IGGY who was so eager to watch me get drunk. The BOLS wasnt as strong as absolute, so it didnt really work. But, I was a happy girl, so happy that you guys remembered and specially made a trip down to celebrate. And also, Cathy's Book and the lovely earrings. Thank You, love them so much

Jiun called when I was bathing. After showering and trying so hard to get rid of the flour and water in my hair. I love you bestie! thanks for everything uve given me and the love u showered me. Rest assured ben, your belove is mine. But u rightfully own her(: Youre now and always my sweetest full time. HAHA 3pm tomorrow!

RAYNER! thanks buddy for companying me through sunday after the Mount E visit. And I love you for that. The movie and sushi treat. Of course, theres still a birthday gift im so excited about! haha. Watched John Tucker and laughed our way through only to realise zach and emily right behind us. We had our catch-ups and some heart2heart on the way back. Thanks for being there when I needed you(: Talking about the band you're starting up, with me being the vocalist. cant imagine don or joel's face when you tell them I wanna try out. you know I can sing pretty well. LALALA. Perhaps, I could be Paramore's successor.... HAHAHA

Big thanks to Daryl, Samme, Geraldine, Janis, Linshee, Marcus, Andrew, Yishi, Rachel, Jiawei, Kel, Jeremy, sixian, Zhong, Joanna, Joshua, Fahmi, Clement, June Tiong, Jiawah and the Bensons.

my beloved monsters(: big surprise for me? absolutely cant wait!

This sem's stucked with jiun again, we've been in the same IS for 3 whole sems already. First, CATS then I&E events management and now photography and spanish

thursday MOS and ECC the next. Count my blessings

f i o@2:35 AM
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