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Saturday, September 30, 2006

If I lay here, if I just lay here. Would you lie with me, and just forget the world...
so addicted to chasing cars

People say the worst feeling in the world is not having eyes to see. Its so true. I wish her pain would go away. The past few months of chemotherapys and operations for her tumour extractions had made her weak, the wounds and cracks in her skins. But she remained strong, taking it all with no complains, sharing gospels with fellow christians in old folks home. Not a single soul could tell she was strickened with cancer. Until she lost sight of the world, she never stop smiling and giving whatever she could. She wouldn't want us to grieve over her departure. Shell be safe in his hands.

I missed Rudith's bday party at liquid kitchen tonight ): I bet all the Monsters are already in their anticipated occupation dressings, ready to rock and roll. I want so much to be there but I hope you girls understand. And ruth, sorry I couldnt make it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLONEY! Tomorrow's another 9 - 4pm working tragedy, hahaha Goodbye holidays! I prefer school, no idea why. But it feels great being surrounded with friends and people I love.

f i o@7:21 PM
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Monday, September 25, 2006

Quoted from "The Tenth Circle" Jodi Picoult

'But as he grew older, he learned that a word was a powerful thing. An insult didn't have to be shouted at you to make you bleed; a vow didnt have to be whispered to you to make you believe. Hold a thought in your head, and that was enough to change the actions of anyone and anything that crossed your path.'

I've just finished reading this amazing book by one of my favourite authors of our time. She's a master-almost a clairvoyant-at targeting hot issues and writing highly readable page-turners about them...It is impossible not to be held spellbound by the way she forces us to think, hard, about right and wrong. She writes with such a fine touch, a sharp eye for detail, and a firm grasp of the delicacy and complexity of human relationships. So anyone, who's in love with books should read this.

Life has been, what's the word when you get too busy? neglecting people which calls for more attention. Getting back my results was the worse feeling ever. The worst in my 3 sems and I studied so hard for it. All the late nights at emily's and at gracie’s mugging our nights through, I thought I could have done better. But sometimes, the harder you worked for it and the more you want it, good stuffs don't happen. Surprisingly, it always does when you least expect it. I had the thought of changing school, some place far away and do something I like. Not this business course Ive dreaded ever since year 1. I've thought of switching a million times, but my classmates. They are such a funny bunch and so precious to me I don't want to leave. Daddy said he don't mind paying to send me overseas to study, to persue what Ive always wanted; a degree in journalism or public relations. But its gonna be hard. Even if he can afford my education, I'll definitely have to take on a financial aid for my accomodations and everyday needs. I thought these issues will only come after I graduate but its all surfacing and its hard not to think about it. So much for “The future lies in your hands”. I don't seem to have any grasp of whats going on..

Ever since the holidays, Ive been training 4 times a week with the monsters. We'll make something out of these. I promise, that includes having the same goal and dreaming the same dream. We're not gonna disappoint again. Our coach, our seniors and the juniors.

Just last week, I watched Pulse and Miami Vice. Both were awesome with great company(: Although Pulse didnt have a good ending.. but the NYDC dinner was great. And Miami Vice, whats better than watching it with my best friend. Hope you like your birthday gift. You're my Fallen Angel.

Working for almost 6 days now. Very boring but easy earned cash. Im just saving everything I can earn now cause its almost impossible to work when school starts. It'll be filled with projects, assignments and trainings again. If I tell you what im saving for, I bet none of you will believe me and some of you might die, so hard laughing.

f i o@1:31 PM
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