:. mystique intrusions .:

2007-02-26T11:29:00.000+08:00

I've moved

www.xoxofo.blogspot.com

sorry to make you guys re-link again ):

[not entirely completed]

so bear w the missing tagboard and links

2007-02-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

Our Valentines Day

due to his bad photography skills and budget us with no cameras, these two hand-shaking shots are still acceptable lah. now u know what you can take for IS next sem? photography lessons(: ahahaha

on a happier note, we had our first polaroid picture taken, fund raisers were walking around helping poor blokes like us take polaroids, just $10 per couple

had our dinner at paragon and walked around before heading down esplanade, with a bouquet of lilies for company.

despite having papers the next day, he made the effort to plan everything. more days like this to come, i love you!

2007-02-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

WHAT I DID TODAY

threw most of my notes away. WDA, BMGT, POA, PBA, BSTATS but i kept the favourites like marketing and written communications HAHAHA

spring clean the house. mop and cleared the trash that had been piling up since forever. now it looks squeaking clean. dished out old Cleos, Her World and TeenVogue(s). wiped my glass doors and helped out in the kitchen. super proud of myself

here's a glimpse of the pretty clean house

Reunion Dinner!

clockwise from left, thats my dad holding e chopsticks, my cousin and her baby Lucas, my aunt, grandma with her fractured arm, grandpaaaa and mum. see the food on the table? her hard work, thank you mummy!

lets enjoy the AFTER-EXAMS HYPE to the fullest.
im gonna

-update and post more pictures (exams made me go on h.i.a.t.u.s):

-start work

-train train train

-spend time with monsters (IMUG!)

-foc

-'can u feel the heat?' YES summers!!! EM GRA RYN <3

-run, gym, swim, row with vin

help me burn off those fats and in return i'll help u get your body back. so stop complaining!

2007-02-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

gonna start mugging, haven't been studying the past few days!
4 papers to go and i'm free on 16th!

only at 4pm

SHUCKS.

and after that MORE last minute shoppings, new-curtains-hanging and vroooomvrrooooom the house before CNY. and straight after it will be the freaking loooooooooonnnnnnnnggggggggggg 2 months break of WORK (at BnJs *cross fingers*) and TRAININGs..

Highlights of last week

Saturday 3rd feb
Black Angels White Devils
@ Baa Baa Black Chic

Sunday 4th Feb

Family Lunch Steamboat & Grill

@ samme's

Feeling hungry? HEHEHE

2007-02-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

trying my best to distract myself away from that piece of MudPie

but the boyfriend just had to have a taste of it first

island creamery serves the BEST chocolate brownies and nutella ice cream. thanks to Serene ( mummie..) for the directions, we head on down to Serene center for desserts after my projects.
Awfully Sinful. Hitting the treadmill again soon and the 30mins run at 9 tmr! nights

they're coming back (: woooooohooooo!!! looking forward to MARCH

2007-01-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

sorry for the intended hiatus friendlies!

HOHO try this! http://seductiveshorts.com

no more spanish, no more monday blues! but i enjoyed the classes, Ms. Kim, name calling F.E.O

used to have scrawny ass HAHAHA
so the coming 2 months break must run like crazy and

more ultimate crazee fun trainings with + ling & I

more summer lovin` with this bunch

more of T.T.O.U

i think i need some answers, reassurance and security
im trying to focus on our present
cause nothing else matters
when im with u

2007-01-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

i had an apple for dinner again.
plus two bananas to fill up whatever spaces left.
but this night
it is definitely not diet watching
im entirely not in the mood to eat anything

i slept once i got home.
super tired.
emceeing was bad.
cause ms tay gave me a LOOK like she's gonna eat me up anytime
i was an hour late. suppose to reach at 3 sharp
HAHA but i didn't feel bad at all!
cause i rather play games with my monsters
freaking hilarious today. totally enjoyed fast games (:
left the BA booth early
leave to find the canoe peeps
BUT when i got there EVERYONE LEFT ALREADY! ): and the booth was EMPTY!
thank God samme came so i went home with her.

past 2 days had been fun, open house this year was not as exciting as last year's
but it was better spending it with the canoeists than spinning tunes at BA
last year was a really good experience hosting and i met some really good friends who have mostly graduated.

im getting really BORED. words with no pictures is like talk but no action.

"love hurts. but sometimes its a good hurt." maybe all along, you're the one too perfect for me.

2007-01-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

i'm staring at the screen thinking of words to fit into EVERYTHING that happened today BUT its simply IMPOSSIBLE! met so many people and did so many things, i want to photograph! so whoever is kind enough, I NEED A DIGITAL CAMERA !!!!!

and junhan just told me my IPOD is irreplaceble ): my pink little nano ))))): will dad surprise me again? and buy me a new one like how he secretly sent my laptop for service? HOPEFULLY.

today:
the boyfriend and i went to town in the morning after his Sports & Wellness class in search for bestie's bday gift. roamed the stretch of wheelock and zara boutiqueee and finally saved our stomachs at wisma for lunch. had tom yam seafood and ice tea at this thai restaurant. YUMMMMMMIES ill definitely go back there!

reached school an hr late to mend the booth with the rest of my canoe peeps. met crystalbel(: i love her pink hair pink shirt and pink eyeshadows, not that i love PINK. but she really looks good in it! walked around with jiun and catched up a little. love ♥ to ♥

i think im starting to get a control of what i put INTO MY MOUTH. i only had watermelons and apple for dinner! thats only because it was past 6, didn't wanna have a bloated tummy when i go to bed and pigging out on tako pachi, ham cheese sandwich and that raspberry bottle earlier made me guilty. used to NEVER worry about what i ate, used to pig out and drive around in search of new makan places for late night suppers and NEVER worry about putting on weight. think my HIGH METALBOLISM is failing me.

when will i ever find myself once again? i mean..... having the ability to EAT like a soldier about to go on some kamikaze mission, bundling up like there is no tomorrow!

okay enough rantings for the night.
Thunderstorms= Bad Weather= Double T...rouble

gonna turn in early tonight, there's a whole new crowd to entertain at 3 tmr. cause ill be emceeing for the sch of BA. excitements! okay -.-

son las doce y once.
im out

falto tú ya );

2007-01-12T02:38:00.000+08:00

we are not perfect.
we all act on impulse
and not being able to change this
is human nature.

trigger happy-ness
honesty is needed in all relationships
i think communication and appreciation comes hand in hand

hello boyfriend,
thank you for tonight.
you made me understand
when are we most thankful for what we've got
when we realise we could lose them anytime

i want to learn to love like all grandparents do.
i want what they call unconditional
~~not everlasting love~~

2007-01-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

funny
how life is.

This is what happens when you let it get to you.
You tell me it's nothing.
But is it really?
If i told you I fell for you
Than i would be a heart breaker, but only to myself.

So i'll be taking the easy way out. I'm out.

2007-01-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

oooohhh wheeee`

to da` amazing viewers this is my lovely friend Jappo a.k.a Tan Yan Hong and her very whimsical notions.
\HAAAWWWWWWWT/

the classics.

its a hair band

when will the skirts come in?

you'll see

ps: QMQMQMQMQMQMQMQMQMQM me somemore lar!

I suppose i'm what they call erratic. i also bring shallow to a whole new level. sometimes its hard to understand myself but i guess love explains it. i've found my happy pill (:

2007-01-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

2006-12-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

recents:

the Monsters; not forgetting lingzhen

the Summers

my Classmates; missing jun han, yeows & joseph

couldnt picture anything more beautiful in my life without y.o.u.s. so before this year ends, which has been pretty good and bad. i just want to say a BIG THANK YOU to youuuu! (:

my resolutions this new year :
I don't see the point now at all.
"don't need them, don't keep them."
learn to live it to the fullest

sometimes, people refuse to forgive you, or talk to u, its okay. i should tell myself its okay. cause i know life will get better. Trust in the Lord!

God bless everyone. have fun and party the last days awayyyyyyy. as for me ill spend it with my family and monsters. maybe the summers if time permits YAYYYY

2006-12-26T13:29:00.000+08:00

MON 25.12.06:

X'MAS has come and gone, but there are 11 days left to ravish it. looking forward to 2007. haven't come up with new year resolutions. mustmustmust! before this week ends.

met him at 8 companied me to church. best pal's church to be exact. Lighthouse @ admiralty. the play about God's Presents was awesome, it made me tear and realise how far apart ive grown from God. Pastor Rony Tan was preaching about God's amazing love he has for us. all in all it was a great service.

HK cuisine for lunch with best pal, her other half and the bf. don't think i'll ever eat mango ice kachang with them again hahaha. watched Flyboys, i'd rate it 7/10. the story line is about ordinary boys who volunteered for the first World War looking for adventure, and in the process, they became heroes. Never before has a movie so accurately portrayed the thrill and danger of the aerial dogfights. James Franco's HotHotHot. go check out the movie! in case u dont know who, he stars opposite Tobey Maguire in Spiderman. pssst! not forgetting Martin Henderson.. heee heee heee

thank you for spending christmas with me
the dress. starbucks. rings (:
for accomodating me and giving so much.
i'm sorry if u received little.
i want to make u happy too.
and this time, if you happen to risk anything once again, ill make sure its worth it.

2006-12-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

SAT 23.12.06:

X'mas wrapping in the morning and rushed down for pool slot. Head to Citilink with the monsters for dinner at NewYork NewYork and opened presents! YAYYYYYY

special thanks to

SERENE; for the pretty necklace, chocs ( i think its BETTER than jappo's 24 fereros ;) and the GString. damn transparent please. HAHAHA

GRACIA; PTS (: cheer up YOU! LINGERIES again. i know ive a BIGBIGHUGEHUGE fetish for these but dont have to gimme sooooooooo many..right

JIUN; FTS AHHHHH the silver bag. OMGomgomgomg. thankyou so muchos

and

MONSTERS for the time spent together. love u gurls a lot!

after that it was Clarke Quay. red wine and 5 10 15 7up (:

pictures up soon! /looking forward to S U M M E R L O V I N`

2006-12-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

project meetings:

on HARD ROCK CAFE. inventory planning layout strategies human resource management etc. have to review the video clips tonight. IF possible. cos im staying over at jiun's(:

Dancing feet:

quite excited cos the gurls are going down to zouk. ladies night but im too broke for drinks cause of all the last minute shopping. cant even afford x'mas cards... how pathetic.

EX-wifey sheena:

another 9 hours and you're LEGAL. oh my! happy for u(: so, HAPPY 18th Birthday in advance. love u and your stupid self seductions. ignores- see you tonight my kinky partner ;)

loser:

JAPPO. ure the only one left. hahahaha OOPS.

slipping away:

shouldnt be wasting any more of my precious time. 2 weeks are pretty short and in no time it'll be 2007. my new year resolutions? haven't thought of it. but im sure ill come out with a list. x'massss shoppping here i come!

2006-12-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

SINCE MY BEST FRIEND'S LEAVING ME BEHIND FOR ANOTHER ROUND OF HOLIDAY TO BANGKOK. I JUST THOUGHT I MIGHT DO SMTH FOR HER BEFORE SHE LEAVES.

HERE I PRESENT YOU, MY SEXY PIXIE ELF(;

http://www.elfyourself.com/?userid=9db89309fa9b8bea2504195G06121822

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2006-12-15T13:09:00.001+08:00

just remembered that i owe someone this post(:

im glad we talked, it's not the usual HappySuaningLaughOutLoudsHimboBimboTalks. But im sure we cleared any misunderstanding between us. just want to let you know, friends always come first and i will never allow/let any guy come between us.

thanks for listening. you know ill be here for u anytime!

okay lah i know this is a very short post compared to what uve written. but words are just words. understanding comes even without saying anything. love ya **LALALALALA(:

2006-12-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

papers officially ended. didn't really MUG like gracia claimed she did but all the late nights, definitely need to get some beauty sleep back. stayed at macs with serene to study CMA through the night until we met jeremy and his classmates, got a place to sleep. quality time with "mummy" sure kills the stress i was having, our heartTOhearts(: really enjoyed every moment of it. more of those to come!

this upcoming 2 weeks of holidays will be back to routines of pool slots & gym. dearly missed the monsters. need to start exercising especially after a gruesome week of JUNKFOOD chocs, burgers and more chocolates. all thanks to YOU im growing fats.

not to say the anticipated x'mas shoppings and gatherings. ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh JUST CAN'T WAIT(:
in the meantime, this should get rid of the guilt and lousy feeling of not doin well for some papers

2006-12-09T11:21:00.000+08:00

happy 18th birthday ling!
okay, this gurl hates it when i call her that.
you're always so funny and cheerful.
never fail to put a smile on my face
stay this way. love you long time(: *MONSTERS' LOVE

i don't know what im doing or what im thinkin and i was hurt. keep hearing things i dont wanna hear. i dont know who to believe anymore... it's just too much to handle at one go and im not as strong as you think. i hate pretending to be happy ALL the time, smiling and laughing on the outside. i tried but seems like its never enough. i need a breather.

Hearing Aid: I Write Sins Not Tragedies- Panic! At the Disco

2006-12-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

i was never a big fan for country music, but shania twain's different. she makes country music sound less boring. like KA-CHING & MAN! HE FEELS LIKE A WOMAN and FROM THIS MOMENT, a song that has to be played at all weddings! sucker for weddings and big fighter planes *whoooooo*

sorry for the random HIGHness. the rarely usual perky mood tonight(:

Janis, if you're reading this..i wanna be a freaking rich char bo like you! hahaha learn SALSA, KICK BOXING, POLE DANCING (okay, this one for u only) i wanna go back to the skinny me! ): feeding myself too much on junks. rid those fats

tests just next week. please give me the MOOD i need to study. i cant seem to concentrate with things going on around me. i miss talking to rayner, iggy and summers(:

Jiun, thanks for being there(: and dragging me all the way to town monday morning for 3 reasons:
1. i wont be able to study cause i can't stop thinking about my laptop
2. i let you eat awful biscuits
3. i love going out with my best friend *thicky....*
although you kept saying it wasn't my fault, i can't help feeling that it is. we still ain't talking but i have faith we will. it's a father and daughter thing we have to go through (:

and HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY LOVE!

Joanne Yeo Hui Cheng, we have known each other since sec 1 - now it's 5 years on and i haven't been checked into a psychiatric ward yet, so let's keep going until one of us goes bonkers from all the times that we laugh till we cry, seeing each other through the highs and lows of every relationship we've had and lost.
cheers to another year of friendship.
pssst.. you always have me. OK (: no more fat ugly BF to make u sad.. haha hopefully KX doesnt read my blog.

you know how much i love you.

2006-12-05T18:32:00.000+08:00

i thought i would end the week smiling a little. But its just weeks like this that made you torn and tattered.
My silver sandals went missing right after pool slot, had to go home with stupid shoes. And the next day, my laptop and ipod's 'gone'.

The cut on his palm, it was worse than watching those two things slammed on the floor. There was so much anger. And as much as i vow never to speak to him again, i can never bring myself to it. i think i really broke his heart. worse, its his birthday tomorrow.

dad, im so sorry...

i didnt want to admit. i didnt want to let my guard down like i've told you to. but now, what must i do to make you understand, to make you open up again. cause deep down i needed you somehow.

2006-11-26T19:29:00.000+08:00

zoey and valerie's having their A'levels prom at Swissotel, both of them missed out sec sch's prom, so I hope they will have a lot of fun at this one! my gurlie best pals since sec 3 (: we studied and had chicken shredded noodles every recess, visited the toilets in trios (not forgetting lauretta), laughed our ass off at zo for being so silly. after 0's ended and the 3 of us went separate ways, im amazed how we still managed to find time for each other.

zoey came over last thursday after her long stresssful week of papers, with joanne. Ate cheap snacks and watched tv then jo had to leave early cos she had dinner at home. So daddy came to pick zo & I out for dinner at Bt Timah market. more fffffish soups to come! (;

and val! my best shoppin pal! last year we watched the Dim Sum Dollies at Esplanade, the ya-ya sisters are showing again this year, you know what im thinking...(: Jon, Zhong and Mic! can u three resurface? I MISS U GUYS! we used to visit Ms chong and Mrs lim during Chinese new years and have BBQs and chalets during the holidays! and its always u people who bring the 4-niners together. so hurry up and plan something before I die of ... starvation. (hunger for ol friends!) hahaha

and HuangYanTing. God... we used to not pay attention to chemistry, talked about novels we read, getting meismerized with Nora Roberts' books cause she authors such great romances and listening to korean songs on Mp3s! hope ure doing good and still writes FABULOUS essays.

YAYYYYYYY. sometimes i looked back at the friends i made in sec sch and thank God because they are the ones who moulded me into who I am today and the reasons Ive found my right group of friends in Ngee Ann.

2006-11-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

suppose to watch Happy Feet today. went Vivo with Denise, Karin, small Benson, Rui xiang, Debbie and DAPH, but the cinema's so packed, we ended up eating Carl's Jr..
had this HUGE western bacon cheeseburger and onion rings. then we met Joyce (Marcus's sister), Alvin Lee and Jeremy! the army Boys.. (: so good to see them. okay joyce's really funny. had a little catch-up with Karin as well, missed her.
went PageOne after that. Like Borders and Kino, the books left my eyes in a daze.. gave me another reason to visit vivo again. Its very much like Kino, the slanted shelves and wooden furnitures minus the dim lights. But unlike PgOne, Kino's got a very zen feel. Continued our chase for my pair of skinny jeans and black mini's. a little note: X'MAS in exactly one month! someone reminded me ( :

so im working hard and saving for people who deserves a lovely x'mas this year..
common test in 3 weeks and selections in less than 2 weeks? cold sweat.

attended without fail, but have I push hard enough? no reasons to look back anymore. focus

2006-11-22T14:14:00.001+08:00

i promised photos. here u go

focus on gramps

the streets

the people

what made thailand famous

lunch before our flight home

the airport

whats better than leaving a photo of myself at the end? hahaha

there's more. will be posting the rest in photobucket(:

If you keep on taking
My heart you'll be breaking
So why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling
It's you I believe in
can't you see that I need you?

2006-11-18T00:56:00.001+08:00

did nothing much today 'cept going for make up lessons cause of the thailand trip. had training today, met most of the monsters and im gonna see them tmr again (: i guess everyone's busy with our own work, jac's right. no matter what, we still have to make time for trainings cause year 3's gonna be busier and we might not be able to squeeze everything together. CMA test's just next tuesday, i wonder how im gonna survive it.

the trip to thailand was quite an experience, can't say its bad but its not great either. even on board the plane, roaming the streets, visiting temples and laying on my hotel bed.. sets me thinking about my life. how time passes us but we cant grab hold of it. saying we'll treasure our friends and loved ones at the corner of our mouths but never do anything about it. how can we live each day like our last? others get so fed up over trivials, never forgives or forgets, bad mouthing others' behind their backs, two faced/ cheaters/ losers, u name it. no one can ever be 100 percent true to their friends. never expect too much of a person, no one's perfect.

God, suppose to talk about my trip. being emo is bad ): ill post the photos once ive uploaded em so i wont have to say much, pictures worth a thousand words.
karyn's gonna design a new layout for me and ive thought of a new email address. change is good, no more nutswithcream (: hahaha how does armyoftheredcheekbones sound?

2006-11-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

RANDOMS

ems, gracie & karyn! lunch every friday(:

my boys hahaha timon. iggy. zhou

monster-love

x'massy mood. this year's gonna be better than the last

we'll really train hard and not let ourselves down
fight for where we want to be. i really dont want to let you gurls down again.

2006-11-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

im leaving and i dont even know the reasons. just have to tag along.. i wonder who's camera im gonna borrow cos dads camera's way too big. i hope i get to see some exciting new places like phuket or something, away from the high rises and the glaring hassles of city life and lights. no shopping bargains on the cheap streets of bangkok, no late nights, no stressful thoughts. just my family and i having the time of our lives breathing fresh airs and scooping sand.
okay, literally.

simply love the beautiful beaches and sun. since lovely singapore's forecasted to rain for the whole of december and i need to tan!
gonna miss my monsters for 3 loooooooonngggggg days not forgetting the canoeists, my classmates(shee, joseph & yeows), summer gurls and two tutorials which i've found make-up classes for.

after work today, met bel, alex, meng and the polo juniors for dinner. we were one big indecisive bunch, finally settled our stomachs at Ljs. walked the whole of marina.. had a little talk with bel; about boys and the life of being a H i m b o. hahaha u think u funny?
oh! and i met jeremy and alfred, they were on their way to junshen's bday party.

and when i come back, there'll be a presentation waiting for me... so im gonna bring my lap. hopefully thai's technology is explicit enough for a simple communication with my classmates.

2006-11-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

i want my first paycheck cause im totally broke
i want to go ikea and start planning on how im gonna revamp my rooom
i want to color my hair and cut it short for a change
i want more muscle relieve plasters to get rid of the stiff shoulders
i want a new hotmail account cause nutswithcream sounds stupid
i want to watch Step Up!!!
i want to finish my homework and not always enter the class 10 minutes late
i want christmas this year to be better than the last
i need time to go slow on all the happy moments because life is too short to sorrow
i need to learn to appreciate what daddy always do and stop being so grumpy
i need to focus and put 100 percent in the pool more than ever before
i need my crazy friends to keep me sane
i need to stay true to myself and no one else
i need you to gather all the courage you need
i need to believe that love doesnt have to hurt to give it a shot again
and
i will give anything to get there just to prove to myself (:

2006-11-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

my 3 favourite on-screen couples would be lucas and brooke from One Tree Hill, seth and summer from The O.C and here's meredith and derek from grey's anatomy. someone made this video and post it on youtube.

the song's Shania Twain "When you kiss me"

im not leaving tonight
ill stay right here.
right where you left me

2006-11-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

the past few days had been busy balancing school, trainings and work. very much the usual stuff. exhausted but keeping it real

worked last night after watching The Guardian with shannon. ashton's the blooomy boy! everything about him's stunning cept the fact that he's married to demi moore. whywhywhy?hopefully their babies look equally hot like mama. life as a coast guard seems pretty inspiring, but i can never imagine my husband doing a job like that. being away with each other, controlled by duty calls, risking lives.. it's hard to imagine you can lose someone this fast, no time for goodbyes ):

im one of those few who believes in wearing pretty underwears will make u feel good
I MEAN REALLY GOOD..
see what i mean? just looking at them..

wwooooooooooow! kill me and my fetish for lingeries. ahahaha

2006-10-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

when a closest bunch of friends come to give u the biggest surprise u ever received and left u tongue tied and although its way pass your 18th birthday, how would u react? i wanted to sssscreammmm out LOUD cause ive the new sleeeek pink version of nano! but refrained from doing so cause im freaking staying overnight at Mt vernon. thanks iggy, gracielumfrikhoo, timon & zhou for driving all the way to aljunied(: back and forth but i guess its a good way to practise your driving, right iggy-friggidy? hahaha and u guys thought that CATHY'S BOOK wasnt enough...? im just too facking happy for words la

today was crematorium day and actually the first time i'd seen daddy cry all these 18 years. i dunno how to describe the messed up feeling im having right now. but i know i really need my crazy funny happy friends to put all troubles away

ive got the job at paper people at far east! 4 sad dollars/hr )): but since im always retrenched & out of job. i shall be thankful. tmr's first day of work but im not getting paid for the first 8 hrs. they call us trainees. oh well gotta go complete my presentation slides for photography tmr!

2006-10-21T10:29:00.000+08:00

i have decided to blog more about school and less of my pathetic love life. Haha

after wednesday's land training, i felt freshed and revamped cause we ran 14km! I thought i could finish it with the guys but my knee gave way. It hurt quite a bit ): but the pain was gone when i ran up-slope. anyways im quite proud of myself

my aunt passed away on thursday morning so i skipped school, attended the wake at Mt Vernon and the night service after that. listened to the pastor talked about her life on earth and even as we grieve, rejoice in the truth that she is now safe with God. it took me quite sometime to register that in, and it urged me to pray and quickly bring dad & mum to know Jesus. not only that, but i want my friends to come to know him too. joanne, jiun, daryl, emily, karyn, iggy and zhou. u guys will be kept in prayers. and i thank God, my other closies have already accepted christ.. zoey, shi, valerie, rayner, gracie and timon. continue serving the Lord!

friday was another sinful venture with jiun & rayner at vivo. spent 116 on a skirt and top from forever21 + 10 at candy empire. PODS chocolates are yummiliciously tasty, a MUST-TRY! i think i can never control myself when it comes to shopping. jiun was trying so hard to pull my insaneness together but my eyes just couldnt stop blinking
hahaha i swear im not a bad influence, jiun! u bought a 58 bucks top and u forced me to eat that choc mudpie from coffee bean sooo to hell with restrictions! study hard work hard spend hard. we've to live HAPPY!!! OKAY? YAY!

NOW, i just need a camera to take all the lovely pictures. rayner's buddies *joel muahhwee don joanne*came and companied us as we hopped on to other temptations. oh ya, rayner & I did some pretty evil things at zara. some lucky person might find out.. in a pair of silver boots.. HAHAHA

see, i can be really happy if i want to and no body can stop me when it happens.. (:

take the effort to say hi
make the effort to smile
make the effort to listen
what's left is the effort to change
are you happy with the way you live? don't you want to be a better person? i know i do.

quoted.

2006-10-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

I dont think you know the thing call love. I didnt make you fall for me; it wasnt even part of the plan.
So, stop acting as if you know me well enough to like me.
Stop talking about me and showing the entire world how it has been hell for you, like it hasnt been for me.
Stop saying how much Ive changed when the only reason behind that change is to stop you from liking me further.
I dont mean to blow you undercover, Im not sad, just frustrated. But of course, its none of your business.

I almost fall for it, the trap, the movie date, that phone call. You know girls love surprises and Im just too stupid. If it wasnt one of your scheming ideas being blown I would have let you lead me by the nose. So many girls, so little time? You know its a dangerous game to play, but you, just simply dont know the rules.

Now you tell me, where does that leave me? Totally screwed.

2006-10-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

First day of school:
Photography class with jiun, joyce & vernon. had to take 40 pictures minimum for a presentation next monday. Vernon's super annoying but it sure was fun. MORE SNAPSHOTS! had lunch at SIM and went to jiun's to watch the whole first season of grey's anatomy while she played SIMS HOT DATE and murdered her fake grandma. stole her carton of milk and her chocos from the freezer. it was damn good. the chocos i mean. cadbury's new chocolate fudge brownie and they're not even out in stores yet.

Today:
skipped OM to watch Princess Diaries 2 with Buddy- rayner but soon after, he left me for JOEL and MWUAH HWEEE ):

lectures were super boring. cost managerial accounting is so gonna kill me i swear. ive to give my fullest attention and do all my tutorials to at least hit a PASS. anyway, suppose to have pool slot after school but due to bad hazy weather, it was cancelled. met some of the monsters and head to Vivo! Had subway for dinner, Pandora & I made the other 3 laughed like crazeeee monkeys.

Sinful Act No. 1: gracia.. if ure ever asking me bout what to get for your anniversary, im sure its the same old answers; cigarettes, condoms, beers, peanuts, hotels and a few KINKY DANCES

Sinful Act No. 2: shopped with jiun. she made me try that black/gold dress.. OH MY. i swear if its 10 bucks lesser ill buy it. im obliged for my own atm a/c and i promised myself to never touch em until the next big sale but i just cant control my temptations! & although there's another round of job chasing tmr at 3pm at far east its not 100% ill clinch the job. so wish me luck!

2006-10-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

Shi, if ure reading this right now. (Cause I just read your blog and i cant tag for nuts cause i dont use Xanga) i dont know how you feel but according to what ive read i know ure feeeling miserable and inconfident and so sick and tired. vancouver is breaking you. But u know u have to stay strong and continue believing that things will go right somehow. Continue praying and trusting in Jesus and im very sure that whatever he's putting you through is a test and you'll emerged more independent and much stronger than u were before. Dont think of jumping down from anything under and allowing inner demons to conquer u. that'd be too satisfying. get out of your hidden covers and start making things happen instead of watching your life slip away like this! yes your parents are forcing you to go to York House which u feel so inferior in, everyone knows everybody and you're this new girl and everything they do seems to favour everything but you. they're stopping you from doing many many things but they can never stop you from dreaming and doing what u want. you're smart, pretty, full of ideas, you write such great articles.... you deserve much better than these. but first, uve got to do something about it. stop envying ruth for enjoying in some arty farty boarding school and start doing something happy for yourself. im always here for you, even if we're a million miles apart. stay strong (:

with love,
your true blue B.F

2006-10-15T12:26:00.000+08:00

comic strip.

so after pool slot yesterday, serene and I went Holland V for our job interview @ Fosters and headed to town to print her photos. met the polo guys waitering at Taka. some 100th anniversary event by Kenzo/Lancome. zhihao, small benson, junkang, peter and jasper. all looking SUAVE in their uniforms. managed to exchange the shirt jiun bought for me at Stitch but its quite different cos the words are in pink instead of brown

went to meet daddy & mummy for dinner at kuriya. some jap eating house at raffles city. their salmon sashimi was SUPERB. ambience pretty cool. service excellent. companied nick to get his slippers and had BnJ ice cream for dessert. ordered my favourites dublin mudslide and choc fudge brownie again with hot fudge and caramel...YUMMMMMMIE

dad still dont wanna get me a camera. i really need it. i mean i really WANT it. that explains why im taking photography 8am TMRRRRRRRRRR ((: cannot believe the HOLS have ended. yes i badly want to see my classmates and get back into varsity vibe but ill miss the everyday-get-to-see-canoe-people times. such fun we had

2006-10-12T17:21:00.000+08:00

Leaving for Mount E in ten minutes. She won't make it through tonight. God. Its just difficult to watch her go. So much has been said and done. But i guess all of us had somehow prepared the worse to happen, just holding back our tears.

I didnt mean to break your heart, but stop wasting your time on me. And you, its someone else you chose instead. Suddenly Little Miss Sunshine has become Little Miss Thunder-Cloud. i think i can't control my own explosions or unhappiness or anger or whatever anymore. it kinda sucks.

I need my happy pills

2006-10-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

06/10-08/10 Eccentric Canoeist Camp was awesome. Shit loads of fun. I cant remember much. Fear Factor was part of the game, we were suppose to eat disgusting stuff made out of wasabi, vinegar, raw eggs, onions etc. Second part was easy, sucking ping pong balls out from a pail of BEEHOON, soysauce and I dont remember whats. Third, we had to extract limes out of mealworms and flour. The fourth one, transfering tiny frogs with our mouths from a big pail to a small cup. And I had 3 frogs in my mouth! Didnt dare do it at first but in the end all of us got so engrossed about winning we couldnt care less. I was like f. just do it. The first night after our ice breakers, we bathed and changed into bath robes and roamed the whole of town. It was much more embarassing compared to last year's( wearing PJs) Last night, all the groups performed. NACC sure has lots of hot potentials! We sweat it all out at the dance party afterwards. Knees aching, shoulders breaking. I love both Mambo & RnB(:

the hot babes

05/10: MOS with rayner, gracie, emily and gracia. Badly missed lingzhen & alexis. Thought 4 monsters were pathetic enough. The music was bad, thank God for GOOD COMPANY. finally legalllll!!#$*#@% HAHAHA no more fake IDs. proudly flashing my card.. im BLOOOODY 18. so buddy treated me some drinks. and I tasted beer for the very first time. emily loves it. vodka cranberries, tequila, sex on the beach and danced the night away. my heels almost killed me

Yesterday: Sentosa(: hoping to get a real good tan but the sun rained out on us. then we had a few volley matches with the guys. and i think monsters played fascinatingLY well. we even beat the "pregnant-sushi ladies"! haha. Dinner at pasta with the juniors. then the bumpy sleepy bus rideeee home and annoying peter & romeo at the back seat. spell U.G.H.

2006-10-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

thankyou guys(: BIG SURPRISE

mimi, zhou, timon, iggy, junhong, vernon, emily & gracie

lovingly done by EMS & GRACIE

very happy faces

missing the other 3 parts of me

diggg in!

i wish i knew

2006-10-03T11:25:00.000+08:00

Met tiffany for swensens and we had a good time reminiscing the past, the teachers we used to have who transfered out and who got married. Then we talked about friends we used to share and relationships that can either break us or keep us alive. I love you loads and Good luck with yours truly haha

I wished last night didnt have to end. Jiun, you're the greatest! planning all of it with such intricate details. ill write in points so I wont miss anything out

shopped the heeren shops, got my black tights at freaking 16 bucks when jiun & I caught sight of one at Cine which only cost 9 bucks. And I almost bought the one at Mphosis which is like 27? &*^%$%#@ to hell with brands?
we took neoprints. HAHA Jiun thinks we look good. Bitchy good, sexy good. And she got me a pair of red earrings (:
watched Little Miss Sunshine. you really "surprised" me GRACIA LOO. Miss gracia thought she was a smarty ass, she scaled the whole of town thinking I wouldnt noticed her. ure really a certified KUKUHEAD. But the egg tart with the candle on top did surprised me. So i blowed the small cake in the theatre and ate delicious double choc chips from Bakin' Boys. u twooo made my day(:
it didnt end here.
headed on to great world for Ben & Jerry's. to find......... MONSTERS at the table, with the chocolate fudge brownie and dublin mudslide ice cream cake. 18 candles, a loud bday song and "KINKY" written on top of e cake. As usual, more photo taking with my loves.
it all ended with a stupid call. and heading home in a taxi

good things come in small packages. the best birthday ever.

2006-10-02T02:35:00.003+08:00

They surprised me. Just wanna thank gracie, emily, iggy, timon, zhou, vernon, junhong and MIMI(: for making this the best 18th birthday SURPRISE ever

So gracie called at 1210 saying she left a shirt in my house and had to take it back. Then the doorbell rang and I opened it. There stood emily and gracie, holding the perfect oreo cheesecake from NYDC YUMMIES! singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY. After that, both of them lead me downstairs saying they've got a bigger surprise for me. I went down and gracie quickly covered me in a big black trash bag and the boys started shooting water guns and dumping flours. It took me 45mins to wash that water+flour outta my head. Came back down and enjoyed the canadian pizza mimi "baked" and had BOLS lychee liquor specially brought by IGGY who was so eager to watch me get drunk. The BOLS wasnt as strong as absolute, so it didnt really work. But, I was a happy girl, so happy that you guys remembered and specially made a trip down to celebrate. And also, Cathy's Book and the lovely earrings. Thank You, love them so much

Jiun called when I was bathing. After showering and trying so hard to get rid of the flour and water in my hair. I love you bestie! thanks for everything uve given me and the love u showered me. Rest assured ben, your belove is mine. But u rightfully own her(: Youre now and always my sweetest full time. HAHA 3pm tomorrow!

RAYNER! thanks buddy for companying me through sunday after the Mount E visit. And I love you for that. The movie and sushi treat. Of course, theres still a birthday gift im so excited about! haha. Watched John Tucker and laughed our way through only to realise zach and emily right behind us. We had our catch-ups and some heart2heart on the way back. Thanks for being there when I needed you(: Talking about the band you're starting up, with me being the vocalist. cant imagine don or joel's face when you tell them I wanna try out. you know I can sing pretty well. LALALA. Perhaps, I could be Paramore's successor.... HAHAHA

Big thanks to Daryl, Samme, Geraldine, Janis, Linshee, Marcus, Andrew, Yishi, Rachel, Jiawei, Kel, Jeremy, sixian, Zhong, Joanna, Joshua, Fahmi, Clement, June Tiong, Jiawah and the Bensons.

my beloved monsters(: big surprise for me? absolutely cant wait!

This sem's stucked with jiun again, we've been in the same IS for 3 whole sems already. First, CATS then I&E events management and now photography and spanish

thursday MOS and ECC the next. Count my blessings

2006-09-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

If I lay here, if I just lay here. Would you lie with me, and just forget the world...
so addicted to chasing cars

People say the worst feeling in the world is not having eyes to see. Its so true. I wish her pain would go away. The past few months of chemotherapys and operations for her tumour extractions had made her weak, the wounds and cracks in her skins. But she remained strong, taking it all with no complains, sharing gospels with fellow christians in old folks home. Not a single soul could tell she was strickened with cancer. Until she lost sight of the world, she never stop smiling and giving whatever she could. She wouldn't want us to grieve over her departure. Shell be safe in his hands.

I missed Rudith's bday party at liquid kitchen tonight ): I bet all the Monsters are already in their anticipated occupation dressings, ready to rock and roll. I want so much to be there but I hope you girls understand. And ruth, sorry I couldnt make it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLONEY! Tomorrow's another 9 - 4pm working tragedy, hahaha Goodbye holidays! I prefer school, no idea why. But it feels great being surrounded with friends and people I love.

2006-09-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

Quoted from "The Tenth Circle" Jodi Picoult

'But as he grew older, he learned that a word was a powerful thing. An insult didn't have to be shouted at you to make you bleed; a vow didnt have to be whispered to you to make you believe. Hold a thought in your head, and that was enough to change the actions of anyone and anything that crossed your path.'

I've just finished reading this amazing book by one of my favourite authors of our time. She's a master-almost a clairvoyant-at targeting hot issues and writing highly readable page-turners about them...It is impossible not to be held spellbound by the way she forces us to think, hard, about right and wrong. She writes with such a fine touch, a sharp eye for detail, and a firm grasp of the delicacy and complexity of human relationships. So anyone, who's in love with books should read this.

Life has been, what's the word when you get too busy? neglecting people which calls for more attention. Getting back my results was the worse feeling ever. The worst in my 3 sems and I studied so hard for it. All the late nights at emily's and at gracie’s mugging our nights through, I thought I could have done better. But sometimes, the harder you worked for it and the more you want it, good stuffs don't happen. Surprisingly, it always does when you least expect it. I had the thought of changing school, some place far away and do something I like. Not this business course Ive dreaded ever since year 1. I've thought of switching a million times, but my classmates. They are such a funny bunch and so precious to me I don't want to leave. Daddy said he don't mind paying to send me overseas to study, to persue what Ive always wanted; a degree in journalism or public relations. But its gonna be hard. Even if he can afford my education, I'll definitely have to take on a financial aid for my accomodations and everyday needs. I thought these issues will only come after I graduate but its all surfacing and its hard not to think about it. So much for “The future lies in your hands”. I don't seem to have any grasp of whats going on..

Ever since the holidays, Ive been training 4 times a week with the monsters. We'll make something out of these. I promise, that includes having the same goal and dreaming the same dream. We're not gonna disappoint again. Our coach, our seniors and the juniors.

Just last week, I watched Pulse and Miami Vice. Both were awesome with great company(: Although Pulse didnt have a good ending.. but the NYDC dinner was great. And Miami Vice, whats better than watching it with my best friend. Hope you like your birthday gift. You're my Fallen Angel.

Working for almost 6 days now. Very boring but easy earned cash. Im just saving everything I can earn now cause its almost impossible to work when school starts. It'll be filled with projects, assignments and trainings again. If I tell you what im saving for, I bet none of you will believe me and some of you might die, so hard laughing.